Fitness / Athletic Conditioning

I was handing out resumes in my area and I was about to head
home and realized ymca was across the street. Ymca where I used to
work out like an animal 4 or 5 years ago. When I was a teenager and I
had this energy. Part of it came from what I was passionate about
which was power and fighting and warrior spirit, and a small part was
wanting to look good.

Now I don’t really believe in the fighting and war stuff so I have
had to redefine my reason for working out. I want to look good
and I want to feel good. It has been harder to feel good as I
grow older but maybe its just because I had been growing more

I felt these feelings like unworthiness but I realized right away
that these are negative self talk which has no place in my mind.

So I walk towards the YMCA and remember what it was like. It felt
almost like I had a reputation I couldn’t live up to anymore. In a
way I did. People would notice when I worked out. I always worked
out with a purpose and it was always intense/ Girls noticed
and I was at that point where I was learning how to talk to them
and everything too.

Now I show up there and it feels completely different. I feel like
I don’t have that command I had, like I was almost an imposter or a
subordinate to everyone who was working out there with a purpose.

I saw a girl with really short shorts and very single toned light
skinned legs working out on a bike and I thought, wow, back when
I was 19 I would have felt like I had more of a chance than I feel
I do right now. Part of it is that I am more aware that I wont
connect with or want to connect with every girl. A big part of it
though was that I didn’t have that eye of the tiger that I had
towards fitness that I used to and it made me feel unworthy of the
type of girl(physically) that I was attracted to which is the type
that works out. The type I had a glance at.

I made sure to keep in mind, I have abundance, I can do anything,
I can be as healthy and therefore attractive, as I want, I just
have to figure it out, and I will.

also I had a thought that with such nice skin, she seemed like she
might be young, like maybe the age I was back when I was in that
warrior mode.

It got me thinking, besides the passion, what is it that is keeping
me from having that eye of the tiger. Is there something else I can
do to get back that youthful energy? Yes, there is.

I need to move more. I need to make moving a part of my lifestyle.
If I’m always moving, I will have energy to make that movement
possible. However I can’t start like always lifting heavy ass weights
or always doing sprints all day. That would be too taxing, at least
to start.

I have to start somewhere though, something I can do all the time.

O I know, I remember articles on the internet about how sitting is
bad and lower metabolism and how standing and walking are better.
I know it works at least for energy cause I’ve done it already.
I’ll do it again.

I’ll get back that life energy that is so important for health
and therefore for sexual attractiveness.

Now that I think of it, this relates back to inertia which is what
I am doing with language learning by always having Mandarin around

The Inertia from always standing allows me to walk, where as if I
were sitting, I would have to get up and then walk.

With sitting, each time I need to get up, to answer the phone or get
food, I have to get up which takes a fair amount of energy especially,
when coming from a position where the metabolism actually slows down.

So I think inertia for activity isn’t simple an on or off. there is
a range with negative, zero, and positive, and if you are sitting,
you are in the negative. If you are standing, you are in the

When you sit your body lowers your energy, when you lie down it is
lowered even more. That is why its easier to fall asleep when sitting,
and even easier when laying down.

When standing, the energy rises, with walking it rises even more.

So to build positive inertia you really only have to do the bare
minimum to begin with to increase inertia. That is, you have to
be standing, kneeling, walking, all the time, never sitting.

Once you can do this, your energy will build and you will be able
to move to doing weights some of the time either spaced throughout
the day or at one time for an hour or something.

However, lifestyle changes trump regimens for building inertia, and
inertia as a Psychological concept is very important.


A Log of my Adventure/Decent into Physical Burn out. August 2012.

Incomplete because this is not a day to day journal, just a journal now that I have recovered somewhat.

It started with the idea from Pavel tetsuli that frequency is more important than sets per session in strength training. His idea is that by simply doing 2 heavy sets of one or two exercises 5 days a week, you will build strength faster than is you were to use a regular body building routine.

I liked this idea but I always try to mold ideas to me instead of going with exactly what the original idea was. Well in most cases, like this, I have to. Reason is that he says you should work out 5 days a week, but I have this urge to do something every day to make sure its a habit and becomes automatic at some point. So I decided that instead of his suggestion of doing 2 sets, one closer to 5 rep max for 5 reps, and one 80% of that, I decided I would do only the heavier set, and do that 7 days a week. Not to big a lead in my opinion, more CNS work, less lactic acid per day, trade of should be ok… well CNS takes longer to recover, needs 5 days, however just one set per exercise c’mon.

Next alteration was that Pavel suggests only 2 exercises, Deadlift and one arm press.

I wanted to do 4. Dead lift for legs, leg raise for core, chins for upper body pullers, and military press for upper body pushers. No biggy, I don’t go to heavy on chins or leg raises either, should be ok.

Next alteration, I need to do cardio at least twice a week or I feel like shit. I like HIIT because then I build athleticism and do cardio at the same time. Oh, that’s CNS intensive as well….well I’ll just do a bit. Three intervals per session plus 10min jog to warm up, should be fine fore twice a week. The Olympics being on didn’t help my urge to training like a mad man either.

Next Alteration, how much sleep should you get on CNS intensive routine. As much as you need, like try going to bed at 10 30 or 11 and waking up without an alarm clock kinda sleep. Possible the best kind. However I decided I needed to wake up at 9am latest to start my day because It sucks to wake up later imo. So I got maybe 7hr – 8 hrs sleep, and going to bed 11 12 or 1 at night. Not the best.

Last alteration, I was on a caloric deficit, CNS doesn’t like this to much either.

So this program was going ok, I was slowly becoming less excited about my daily work outs but who wouldn’t, its the same thing everyday, and once you know you’re doing what you need to be doing maybe it just looses its luster. I swapped a strength session for an HIIT session on days I knew it would be to much and kinda had a system going.

Then cam family vacation. I decided I wouldn’t be exercising for 3 days so I should pack it all in to the last 24 hr. I did the hardest 3 intervals of HIIT I have done at least for this routine, the evening before the trip. The morning of, I woke up after 5 maybe 6 hrs of sleep after that session and did a strength training session. Ok lets party.

That family vacation could have been better, I felt sick in the car ride there, did’nt vom or anything but some mihgt have, I’m just too cool for that lol. My appetite was always there underneath the surface, a hunger, like a vampire, but for food.

Here is the worst part. I thought the vacation would be a time to recover like you see on tv with people laying under a tree on a beach all day but we don’t do that so far as I know in my family. We also don’t care much for going to bed at a reasonable hour. So Ave bed time of the vacation was 1 30. So my CNS is actually still being taxed during this vacation. My dad snores at night and we shared a bed and my mood starting getting out of control when I couldn’t sleep right away after already having to wait until my mom turned of the hotel tv. I starting thinking like, wouldn’t it be great if I woke up so sleep deprived that I walked out into the street the next day and go hit by a car. They’ll teach them what sleep is really about. That idea fell away quickly, its not how I am and I new it, so flipped myself on the bed to sleep with head to my dad’s feet and vice versa and went to sleep (I think that was the finale night of the trip).

Go home and had no desire to touch the weights or get big, or stay lead or do cardio. I just had not passion for it. I focused on trying to get my sleep right. Then, after only 5 or 6 days, I decided I’d through in a 20 min jog, just to keep me sleeping right. I still was only sleeping ok. Then I decided to throw in a weight training session. That night I got to bed fairly late , 1 30 – 2, and woke up 9 – 10 feeling un-rested.

About 8 days from the last weight training work out I decided to do another weight training workout. I had gotten ok sleep the night before, not great, maybe 7hr of alarm clock sleep. Did the weights that evening. Got to bed at 12:15, fell asleep probably by 1. I had some messed up dreams like my friends friends trying to shoot me with a machine gun, and me drinking a mc Donald’s ice cap with fries in it, and then eating some of the fries from in the cup as well, and then repeating. I woke up “by bladder” at around 7:30 feeling amazing for some reason. Breathing deeper and feeling refreshed except I didn’t have it in me to hit the weights again. So I didn’t. I felt it interesting to notice that I only needed 6:30 hrs sleep last night to fully recover where as most days I need 8hrs.

Long and weird dreams would mean a longer R.E.M. Cycle or something like that, which would mean more CNS recovery. If only we could sleep like that when ever we wanted. Only think I can think of is go to bed when your tired, instead becoming occupied with the T.V. Or computer. When you are tired is when your brain is primed for deep sleep and remembering dreams ect but if you let that time go away, like if you wait till 1am, dopamine floods your system and you sleep will not be as good, and when I say not as good I think its like only equal to half a nights sleep as far as feeling like a person should feel on a day to day basis. Like how you felt as a kid, and remember your parents forced you to go to bed on time. We were all bouncing off the walls. Go to bed when tired and you’ll will be bouncing of the wall like I am about to do. Excuse me…